God didn't have to do that

Jesus came and sat by my mom about a couple months ago. “Now you know I’m no mystic Katie. And it wasn’t scary or mystical. But, I was in bed, and I was awake. I wasn't dreaming. I was aware of what was going on around me. All of a sudden, it felt like I was sitting up even though I wasn't. And Jesus was sitting beside me! I couldn’t see His face, and He didn’t say anything, but He came. And that's all there was to it. Every once in a while when I remember that, I think it was to prepare me.”

Thank you Jesus for sitting with my mom. To prepare her. It was so sweet of you. You didn’t have to be that good to her. Thank you.

Yesterday I found myself asking, where are you Mom? Are you really gone? Last night, right before going to bed, I stepped outside on the balcony. It’s where I would go to be alone and think when I was in high school. I wanted to feel mom. Suddenly there was a huge, long shooting star. You didn’t have to do that for me God. Thank you.

Today we went to church with Dad. The church they have served in for 36 years. Their second home. Their family. Of course Dad had so many brothers and sisters hugging and loving him. Then, we sang, “Great is Thy Faithfulness”. To put it kindly, my Dad is not a singer. Tone deaf would be an accurate description. I wish I could have recorded that moment as my Dad sang “...strength for today and bright hope for tomorrow, blessings all mine with 10,000 beside…” He didn’t just sing it, he belted it out. So loud. So offkey. And I wept as I got to hear my Dad tell his God that He was faithful. “Morning by morning new mercies I see.” Thank you God for giving me a Dad who wants to praise you for your faithfulness the day after his wife dies. You didn’t have to do that.

We were joking earlier today about people using words incorrectly. Like saying literally when it’s not literal. “I literally went back in time.” But, I have literally felt your prayers. I was standing in the kitchen today, wondering why I felt so happy. And I KNEW it was God using the prayers of you all to cause that. You didn’t have to do that. Thank you.

I’ve done nothing to deserve the IMMENSE grace, mercy, love and faithfulness God has shown me. I’ve done so much to try to escape it. Thankfully He is a relentless lover, who has pursued me and forgiven me too many times to count. God you are my anchor in this storm. You are my deepest soul’s joy and comfort. Thank you. You didn't have to do that.


Kate HagenComment