Open the eyes of my heart
This morning, as I began my meditation time, I asked God to open the eyes of my heart. It was a sincere prayer, that I jotted down in my journal, but it was said quickly.
I cracked opened up my Bible to the book of Matthew, where I has left off at the day before. As the story goes, two blind men start following Jesus. They are shouting loudly at him, "Have pity and mercy on us!"
The timing of their request is interesting because Jesus JUST taught about the importance of mercy and pity (the very things they are asking for).
So, as the men who were blind appeal to Jesus to be merciful and have pity, they are asking the RIGHT thing. Jesus responds to this request because it is the heart of God. In my opinion, this is a good move on their part.
And, come on, you gotta love that they're following him and shouting loudly. That's bold! “Have pity and mercy on us!”
Jesus responds to their request with a question: "Do you believe that I am able to do this?"
OH, right there Jesus gets me. I ASK things of God often, but do I believe God is able to do what I ask? Or am I just complaining, or going through motions, or being vague. Jesus' response is so good! “Do you believe I am able to do this?”
Well, at this point in my reading I pause to jot down a thought in my journal and see that I had written, "Open the eyes of my heart, LORD." Really?! Oh, God is so good and funny. I just asked for my eyes to be open and my reading for today just "happened" to be about blind men asking to have their eyes opened.
Jesus question hit me hard, "Do you believe that I am able to do this?" I had to pause and check if I do. Do I believe God can actually open the eyes of my heart? And what is it I want to see anyway? I took a few moments to get more specific:
God, open the eyes of my heart to see love, to see beauty, to see your truth for me today, to see Spirit, wisdom and the satisfaction you provide.
Ok, THIS is what I want to see. I've followed Jesus and shouted the request like the blind men did. Now what?
Jesus asks, "Do you believe I am able to do this?"
Their answer: Yes Lord.
My answer: Yes Lord.
Jesus answer: According to your faith and trust and reliance on me it will be done to you.
Then he touched their eyes. And their eyes were opened.
OH, this is so beautiful to me! And my eyes are open today, because of my faith, trust and reliance on God. Open to Love, Beauty and Truth. I will have to ask for them to be open again tomorrow. But, I'm not going to worry about that; today has enough troubles of its own.
Today the eyes of my heart are open and I can see.